4 weeks and 3 days

Today, I went for the ultrasound to get a clearer picture of how many weeks I'm at. Unfortunately I left the office in a less clearer state.

Initially the technician, Maria said she would try to do an abdominal scan to check but being so early in the pregnancy I may need to do a trans-vaginal one to get a clearer picture. True enough the abdominal one showed nothing. So we proceeded with the vaginal one. It was not as uncomfortable as I had imagined. Actually hardly any discomfort at all. But when she finally pin pointed the sac, it appeared to be very small. And after taking all the measurements she told us it was 4 weeks and 3 days! Huh?!

That simply doesn't add up. I kinda questioned her about it. Cos, 2 weeks ago I took the UPT and it was already positive so that should put me at at least 4 weeks. So how can I still be only 4 weeks along? That means the baby was only conceived 2 weeks ago? She didn't have any answers for me but she just said we can check again after 3 weeks and to see what my doctor says. Somehow it didn't sound very convincing.

I got home and of course immediately starting googling for more info. And what I found out made me feel less than happy. From what I can gather a lot of times if the sac measures small it's a sign of it not growing well and will usually result in miscarriage. Of course there were also a lot of people who calculate based on their LMP (last menstrual period) so that's why they calculate wrongly. But I already take that into account. I took the UPT on 13/1/2012 which was positive so that would put me at 3 weeks at least! so I should be at least 5 weeks along. Sigh....I am so confused

The doctor's appointment is next Wednesday so we'll see what he says.

I still don't have any nausea. Prior to the scan I as secretly hoping that maybe this time around I
won't have to face it but now it looks like it's just too early. But it doesn't explain all the indigestion I've been having for the past 4 weeks?!

34 months

17/1/2012- For the past 3-4 days Meera has not been sleeping well. Last Thursday she woke from her nap crying. And most nights she will usually wake up crying 1 -2 times. Last time all we had to do was go down and tuck her in and she'd go back to sleep. But this round she takes a long time to settle and when we leave her she starts crying again. I don't know what is going on???

The other night she was up from 4 a.m. till 7 a.m refusing to sleep. Last night we put her to bed at 9.45 pm and she kept calling to us. She will usually have some reason or other: water, spider, pee etc. And it all seems like she's just trying to get us to come see her. Finally Jing sang to her until she fell asleep. And today I had to do the same for nap time. Part of me feels so frustrated since we spent so long teaching her to sleep by herself. It seems like we're moving backwards now. But at the same time I'm at my wits end how to get her to sleep!

After a few days of this we have slowly gone back to normal. It took a lot of singing and reassuring her. I'm still not sure what brought this on but we came to the conclusion that scolding her wasn't getting us anywhere. As the saying goes, you catch more flies with honey than vinegar. So now we are going for the soft approach. It's a lengthier bedtime ritual but at least there's no crying and screaming (on both sides). Bedtime now includes a song and a bit of chit-chat before she can say goodnight. And for some reason I need to reassure her that I will come back to see her after I bathe/pee/do whatever. Once she tells me goodnight I can leave here there to sleep on her own. She's still waking up around 3, 4 am but we just go down reassure her and she goes back to sleep.

I also noticed that she's got both of her bottom molars already. Not sure when this happened but maybe that's why she's having trouble sleeping the past few months. The top ones are all that are left now. So that's gonna bring about another bout of drama.

She's started taking a real interest in writing now. She can almost write her name. R seems to be hard for her but she's slowly getting there.

A few firsts this month:

First 'professional' haircut. I was quite nervous but she sat really still the whole time. Which was all of 10 minutes. For $13.95 it was not exactly great but better that a home cut.



First cinema experience: We went to watch Happy Feet 2. She did quite well. Got a bit upset when the krill was being chased by the whale (?). As usual she does not like it when bad things happen. She was crying quite a bit so Jing took her outside for a couple of minutes. It was almost 1.5 hours and she managed alot better than I expected. The popcorn and Penguin plush helped. Not to mention the fact that the penguins name was Erik!

We also celebrated Chinese New Year but it was a relatively uneventful one this year. It was just the 3 of us so nothing fancy.

Positive?

So yesterday, I had an appointment with Dr. Timothy Foo to confirm the pregnancy. I took a urine test this time and it was a very faint positive so he said I was probably like 4-5 weeks along. But he suggested I get an ultrasound so they can have a more precise date. So right now although I am pregnant I still feel like I need to see the ultra sound to truly believe it.

So far the only symptoms I have are still indigestion and breast tenderness. Maybe a bit tired but that could be because Meera's sleeping has been a bit off.

Positive!

Took another UPT today and this time....2 lines! As I was waiting for the 3 minutes I saw the control line appear and a small wave of disappointment set it. But after a few minutes the 2nd line appeared (faint but definitely there).

I took a test last week but it was negative so I guess I tested too early. Based on my records I must have conceived around December 26th. Strangely enough I seemed to have some symptoms quite early. Either I'm super observant or just a coincidence? The only reason I took the test last week was cos 3 days prior to that I noticed I was having a lot of heartburn and indigestion after my meals ( and the only time I suffered that was during the later part of my first pregnancy.) I don't remember it being an early symptom of my first pregnancy though. Nevertheless it did make me wonder. Then this week I started getting really tender breasts but seeing as I how that usually happens before my period comes I figured I was definitely not pregnant. But it seemed to be more sensitive than normal and I was starting to feel like it was swelling or something. Are they getting bigger?? I swear it feels like it. Other than that no other symptoms. No tiredness and no puking (for now at least)

Oh but yesterday Meera was being quite naughty and I actually started crying at one point. Hormonal, much?